Angsty Post, Don't Read

O levels over. By a month. I'd meant to write immediately after, but at first I was zonked to multiuniverse and then I just had to run around doing overdue stuff like tidying up my room, hanging out with my friends and reading books I've been longing to read for months, and after that I just didn't feel like blogging. You know how that goes. ><

Anyway, I've been posted to RJC O_O. My parents, brothers, and associates persuaded me to apply for it just to try it out (PAE) and hope like hell I actually get in, because I've heard tell they only had, what, 200 places for incoming lost sheep? So I put it as first choice not expecting much. And then POOF.

Darn.


***code word: DEVILLED EGGS***

The campus looks, from the road, like a block of starte-of-the-art whitewashed ice. I'm hoping the atmosphere of prisonlike studiousness I felt emanating through the car windows is lying about what it's like on the inside. Also, there is the sad fact that I'm almost certain to get pwned hard by the more experienced RI and RGS people, most of whom had had the opportunity and time from sec 3 up to specialise. It is not a good idea to get pwned in RJC, especially in my family.

***code word: DEVILLED EGGS***


Feel the full force of deadly paranoia, nervous depression and rock-hard pessimism! Otherwise known as ANGST.

One day at a time then.

Scared.