SATs was expensive.

I signed up for SATs today! After a whole life of essay-writing and two years of absence from the sciences I CANNOT BELIEVE I am facing an MCQ exam. This is going to be a damn breeze after my A level torture. And after having looked at the sample questions for the subjects I'm taking along with the SAT I papers, I had better damn well ace the shit or I swear I'll eat my toenail shavings. I mean, I could answer most of the Bio paper sample questions and I haven't so much looked at curricular Bio since the O LEVELS.

This is a reactive mechanism I'm going to put into place because I'm so freaking scared of what will happen to me if I screw up this year on a level I mostly ignore, but nevertheless seeps into my conscious existence in evil ways. I refuse to underestimate an exam, but I'm having difficulty NOT overestimating this one. In any case, I'll have two weeks or so after Prelims to get ready for SAT I, and about a week (give or take a few paper-burning sprees at the class chalet after the last paper) after the A levels to prepare for my SATs II. Compared to the rigours of everyday life as a J2 student in A-level panic, lots of time.

In the meantime, I'm still freaking terrified for myself at the A levels even though I'm doing everything I can to change that. On the other hand I'm serenely confident. One doesn't need academic credentials to draw good comics. And for the first time in my damn life, I got a 20/25 for a History SBQ.