general arghness

I think it will be a good thing to have a rest day after every six days, so that I can take time off to do things like draw and bang on the piano and talk to my friends without having to worry that I'm wasting time. I will pretend that I am not wasting time by calling my rest day 'personal well-being' or 'a sanity-preservation neccessity' and keep my school materials far at bay so that I will not feel guilt pangs when I chance upon them. This is nearly impossible because my school materials are all over the place. My files are bursting with them and I shall have to buy two new ones on Monday to relieve their burden and welcome an influx of new loose sheets. Math prelim and practice papers have cost me $14 so far in photocopy fees, and history isn't much better off. I will see how I can have a guilt-free day of relaxation, and if that one guilt-free day of relaxation would cool my internal engines so much that I can't get started again, which is as likely to happen as anything else. Tomorrow I will do nothing but KI, in a chat with 4 friends, 1 acquaintence and 2 strangers, and nothing else. That will be a start.

I had my SATs today. There was one question I didn't know how to do. I still don't. If I get less than a perfect score it will be because of my essay and that one question. I remember that question perfectly but because I have agreed not to tell anyone about it at the back of the test OTAS booklet I probably can't, alas. But the essay is another thing altogether. It was the first section and I had missed it out somehow, so I was doing the second section when the invigilator, bless his eagle eyes, spotted me and went over. Then he turned my OTAS booklet one page back and I saw LINES, to my eternal horror, LINES. It was a one-in-a-thousand fluke and it cost me 5 minutes off my 25-minute allotment for essay time. Basically, SHIT. And given the quality of my answer (GP-style questions like that baffle me; I haven't had any training in what is acceptable, and that question asked about a specific something in which I have no opinion), the most I can get now is probably 4 out of 6. Argh. Argh!

One thing I am most sad about. There's a particular TV series that is coming to a close. It is the most tremendously fantastic live-action television drama I have ever seen. Love, family, politics -- lots of politics -- war, and all that. Filming, lighting, costumes, ACTING, characterisation down to the bone. It's coming to an end. Now is the final climax. Argh okay. Second last episode. I am watching it now.

Argh.